One of My Motivations...

Sorry I’ve been MIA for a few days folks. It’s been a busy week for the family. Dad has had work issues, mom has had mom issues and sweet Noah has had the Special Olympics!! I wanted to take a moment and brag on my son (a mother’s right you know) and it gave me the idea for this blog post. Not only does he bring unimaginable joy into our lives, he is also a big motivator for me to succeed in my weight loss journey. Back to the bragging part: my son, who hates crowds, noise and exercise of any kind actually battled it all and ran the 50 meter dash. AND HE WON IT!  This was such a huge achievement for him; especially considering that last year in the same event he panicked and fell to the ground when the starting gun went off.

So back to my motivation:

I want to be around (and not couch potato around) if you know what I mean! I want to be here for him as he grows into a young man, runs another race and reaches all the potential that God has for him out in the world. I won’t be able to do those things if I can’t even get myself or my body up and moving. Nor will I accomplish anything if the only walk I ever take is to the refrigerator! When thinking today about all my son accomplished, it brought tears to my eyes. It made me realize how much he has to overcome every day just to function in this world that can be largely noisy, inconsiderate and totally overwhelming for him due to his autism. And yet here I sit, complaining that I CAN’T…. I can’t lose weight! I can’t stop eating! I can’t go to the gym enough! I CAN’T! I CAN’T! I CAN’T!  I came to the conclusion that the only person getting in my way is ME! The only nay-sayer is ME! The only obstacle is ME!

So if my sweet 13-year-old son who battles daily just to do the basics can muster up enough guts to run a race in front of a crowd of people on a hot day ; why can’t I get off my duff and get serious?  I CAN. And I have my son to thank for reminding me that I CAN!

On another note, my husband and I have to consider many things regarding the future for our son. One of the biggest motivations I consider with my whole journey in weight loss is being able to care for my son long after his 18th birthday. You see, our son will most likely live with us all his life. Now we have set up a special needs trust for when the time comes that dad and I are no longer here. That being said, we are both very well aware that as we are aging, we need to stay in as tip-top shape as we can to take care of our son. Again, “couch potato not really the best option!”  

I’ve said a lot in this post. Shared a lot of what my family life is like at home. When it comes down to it, I needed a reminder of my motivation for taking this journey. Please don’t get me wrong, I have plenty of personal motivators that I need to be holding onto and bringing to the forefront. But my son, my sweet young man is definitely tops of the list for this mom. I love him dearly and cannot imagine life without him!

Have a great night all!

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