Posts tagged ‘hope’

Fragments of thoughts…

Why is it that when I do actually have a few moments to write, that the words won’t come out? All these fragments of thoughts roaming around my head and I’m unable to put them into a coherent sentence. It kinda feels like that in my weight-loss journey; or lack thereof.

I have moments of strength and many more moments of weakness. I haven’t been able to find that place, that encouragement, that determination that I had way back when… I’m afraid I’ve hit that point of no return and I’m scared! Funny thing? I don’t really think it’s about the weight. I think the weight gain is merely an outward sign of what’s going on inside my head. Too bad there isn’t a diet that can fix head problems!! If someone ever does invent it; they’ll be rich!! Maybe I should work on it?!?

It’s funny, sitting here typing and my mind wandered to all that I have to be thankful for in both my life as a whole and my journey to being a healthier me. I have good marriage with a supportive husband. I have a step-son and grandchildren who make me grateful to be “family,” and last but not least a wonderful son, who despite his autism makes my life a joy! It’s hard though, many times the things/people in our lives that bring us the most joy also bring us the hardest challenges. Knowing and finding that fine line of ‘holding it together’ and pushing/praying through the hard times is that place that many times I lose site of…

To be continued…


Gym Support!

Gym Support!

Summertime is here and it brings a lot of needed babysitting support. We (myself and fellow weight-loss bloggers) talk a lot about what works for us, what DOESN’T work for us, good & bad foods, good & bads days…. it’s a lot. But what I thought of this morning while weighing in and figuring out the day was how much I am truly supported on my journey. There is not a day that goes by that I am not supported in one way or another by hubby, son, family friend or life-long BFF while I make this trek to a healthier me. So as I sit here planning the day… wondering if indeed I will make it to the gym amongst my myriad of duties today; I’m remembering to be grateful.

So to my husband Jack: you are the most fantastic man I know. You have loved me for nearly 23 years and supported me throughout weight ranges of 135-215!! You learned the hard way how to help me (or not) when I struggled with my issues! Mostly, however you have been there… day in, day out, and never leaving. For that, I will forever be grateful. I love you!

To my dear BFF Karen Schmautz (of the fabulous blog “Yes, Chef!”) Thank you for 20+ years of friendship. For sharing your “couch” with me through many tears and much laughter. Your enduring friendship and love have meant the world to me and I am blessed to call you friend.

To my son Noah, & big Bro’ Christian: you two have given me so many reasons (mostly good! LOL) to understand unconditional love. It wasn’t something I understood as I do now, until you both entered my life. Thank you. My love for you will always be the shining bright spot in my life. You and your father have made me truly happy.

Lastly, my Father in Heaven who gave me a new life. Who helped me understand that even on the darkest of days, I am never alone.


%d bloggers like this: