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The Dreaded Sugar Addiction; and my Frustrations!

The Dreaded Sugar Addiction; and my Frustrations!

What can I say? I’m a sugar addict! I’m an addict period. Never in my life have I felt so helpless. I’ve been reading as much as possible about beating addiction. I’ve read all the “points” that are supposed to help; they haven’t!

I keep going back to the statement “you have to want it bad enough.” Really? Is that really all there is too it? Because I feel like a helpless, frustrated failure. I guess I really don’t want it bad enough to stop drowning myself in quick fixes. I know I’m not alone, but I feel alone. I know I’m not the first person to struggle with this, nor will I be the last. So why does it have to be so damn hard?

My best friend and I have been talking about the reasons why I might be struggling so much at this given moment. Yes I have a lot on my plate, but so do many others. Why now? Why these particular issues at this particular time? I’ve think, thank and thunk them ad nosium…

What connection is there to craving sugar loaded crap versus emotions? I’m not hungry, but I keep going to the refrigerator and the pantry to look AGAIN for something to eat. The high passes and I once again wonder aimlessly through my own kitchen looking for grub!! Am I soothing the soul with sugar? Am I getting my ‘fix’ as a drug addict gets his/hers? I have no answers. I don’t even know if I’m asking the right questions.

What does “lifestyle change” mean? I don’t know if I know how to live a life of “healthy eating.” Better yet, I don’t know if I even want to… How sad is that statement? I don’t even know if eating for health versus eating to glutony means much to me anymore. I. JUST. WANT. TO. EAT. Sadly, I don’t think it has anything to due with hunger.

Signed,
Fat

Good Fuel vs. Bad Fuel

Well my birthday has passed and it’s time to get back on track. I didn’t fall completely off the wagon, but I did allow myself a few birthday treats. Funny thing, I’m ready to just eat healthy and work-out. I think it’s those “cheat days” or whatever you call them that helps you appreciate how good you feel when you’re putting in the heathly fuel that your body needs… 

I’m actually craving this broccoli salad that I’ve had a few times lately! I think maybe it’s on the menu for lunch today! 

I’ve been thinking of doubling my cardio input for a time. I really enjoy my weight training and boxing, but find that when I’m at a plateau, it’s usually the cardio that gives me that extra burn I’m needing to push myself a little farther. 

We had a bad tank of fuel in our car the other day. It made me think of my body, of how I felt after some “birthday treats.” It wasn’t the greatest. Our car seemed to sputter on and off all day until it finally rid itself (or burned off) the bad gas!! * Ewww, bad gas!! Sorry, bathroom humor and I couldn’t help myself… if you can’t laugh at your own jokes, who will???

On a serious note, something as little as a bad tank of gas brought the point home for me. What goes in, affects the performance that comes out. I can’t expect my body to respond outstandingly if I don’t give it the fuel it needs. I’m still going to enjoy a birthday treat occassionally, but my daily fuel will be of a more healthier choice! So I’m off to have an amazing broccoli salad! Have a great day everyone!!Image /

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