Posts tagged ‘trials’

Hoping Makes Nothing Happen; Action Does!!

Image

How funny that it takes so many tries to get something right and have it actually mean something… For me this is SO TRUE! What I gain easily (not weight as I do gain ThAT easily), I rarely value. What is easy for me to achieve, usually means nothing because I haven’t truly worked hard for it. I know my words are not 100% for everyone, but for me… they ring true most of the time.

What comes quickly and easily, I don’t tend to value its worth. Yet that which takes time, trials and sweat; these, I remember!!

So what’s my point? I’m not sure. I’ve been struggling for quite some time. You that read and / or follow my blog will see as my posts have all but stopped for the past few months. This is part of my ‘not so great‘ qualities. I give up when it gets hard. I bury myself in the memories of what was, instead of focusing on what is and what can be.

I’m typing out the ramblings going through my mind this morning. I usually don’t have that luxury as my handicapped son is with me virtually 24 hours a day. This is certainly not his fault, but it does lend itself to my limited amount of time for me stuff.

I’d appreciate your thoughts, prayers, encouragements and practical advice from those who struggle with letting life overwhelm you. I realize we all have different issues to deal with and there’s not a ‘cure all’ piece of advice for everything. I would just like to hear from you and words from your own experiences.

Thanks in advance,

“Jewels”

Excuses!

Excuses!

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking on this myself. Am I buying my own excuses? Indeed, my life is somewhat of a crazy mess. That being said, how long can I continue on the path I’m going? Not long, unless my desired goal is to GAIN WEIGHT!!

Something has to give… but in there lies the quandry. My daily life isn’t going anywhere; son w/ autism who requires a lot of care, husband who travels for work, “(it pays the bills) and the aging process! Argghhh!!

So what do I do? How do I work out daily life so that I can take care of my own needs? Sound selfish? I don’t mean it too. But I also realize that if I don’t do something, I will either be 400 pounds, crazy or BOTH!

The docs appointment is this Thursday. My results are back, in regards to my thyroid and my hormone levels. As much as one doesn’t want something to be wrong; I am hoping that the results will shed some light onto my current physical condition. I don’t think I have ever been so tired and without motivation in my life. But as I look over the last 20+ years I realize I didn’t have the trials, responsibilities and daily interuptions I have now.

I’ll be keeping you all posted on what I find out from the docs. Thanks for all my fellow bloggers support. It’s nice to know I’m not alone on this journey.

F2F2F

%d bloggers like this: